I party like a rockstar.Ü

wat a day.. I never had a thought of Donating a bag of 400 c.c of my blood just for my NSTP.. my blockmates and i went to the Nursing building to check if we are allowed to donate blood.. but unfortunately..some of my blockmates failed to do so because of being under weight.. grabe.. akalain m un.. sa payat kong toh nakapagdonate akoh ng dugo... At first ayaw tlga nung doctor xe wla daw magbabantay sken..tska i hav asthma daw... bka bgla akong atakihin.. eh... nagpumilit ako... xe ayaw kong bumagsak... so pinayagan n ako.. at first... pinapanood k lng mga blockmates ko.. nangaasar pa nga ako e.. but nung dumating n ung time na ako na ung kukuhaan ng dugo... OMG!! i was 50% nervous.. and 50% dying.. for a thought na baka maubusan ako ng dugo.. oh db??! parang tanga lang.. akala k namn ung normal needle lang ung gagamitin to get my blood.. un pla.. gage 18!! F**k.. anlaki nya promise.. dun tlga ako kinabahan ng sbra.. nung nainject na ung needle sbrang bagal namn dumaloy ng dugo ko... so sbrang natagalan akong nakahiga dun.. grabe wat an experience.. it was the very first time na i donated blood..para tlga akong nalantang gulay after nun...  but infernes im glad n din kasi khit papano makaktulong ako sa ibang tao...oh db?? tila isang nobela.. hehe.. this is a great experience... promise...

la lang...

My god... i just never felt this way again... i feel so stupid and alone... and i just rilly dont know how to solve this thing.. i have been thinking bout him all day.. but i think it will take him a long process to forgive someone like me. Oh no... wat have i done? i feel so sorry, but wat can i do? i feel so different being hir.. i was used being next to him. i hav no one to talk to.. seems like everywhere i try to go.. i keep thinking of him... i just can't breath without him by my side.. my gosh im losing my mind..i admit.. i rilly made a mistake..and im rilly SORRY for that.. put all the blame in me.. im sori.. i miss u so bad and i just cant sleep..pls.. im begging you... all i need is ur forgiveness.. nothing more nothing less.. i hope u do hir me..i just need you hir next to me..